What I’ve Learned about Feeling like a Failure

A short story about a conversation with a friend that invited me to reflect back on my career and why I felt like a failure.

For example, a year ago I would introduce myself as Amanda, co-founder of Flamingo Punk. About 5 years before that, I was Amanda, Founder of Fashionably Skint. These roles, duties, ventures, missions, purposes were a part of me. They made me ME in that chapter of my life. When things didn’t work out the way I’d planned, yep, you guessed it, I felt like a failure. It was a scary and shaky space where I felt lost and a bit lonely. Who am I now? Just being Amanda didn’t feel enough.

My identity had suddenly vanished. And that’s why I felt like a failure. But it never lasts long, just a few blank pages or so. Because that failure feeling always disappears when the next calling turns up, and it always will. The space we move into after our lives suddenly shake up is an incredible space to be in. It’s like the universe has invited you (again) to write down what you want, what you want to be, do and see. How you want to show up. How you want to be remembered. What you care about. What you want to be known for — all of that good stuff.

We get the power back. The blank pages are the fucking power. The blank pages represent the not knowing bit. As scary as it sounds, fuck me, it’s so freeing you wouldn’t believe. It’s a spiritual awakening. A chance to feel it all for a bit. And sit with it. I mean, how often do we get the chance to do that when we’re in the thick of living?

Pema Codron, Buddist Author of, When Things Fall Apart, talks about it like this:

I think, the reason why we feel like we’re a failure from time to time is because we forget that we are always in transition. We are always changing.

Ram Das says it perfectly… “Make friends with change.”

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Founder & creator of 5 Stories, a methodology I use to help businesses tell stories that connect with people. I write about storytelling and entrepreneurship 💫

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Amanda Baker

Founder & creator of 5 Stories, a methodology I use to help businesses tell stories that connect with people. I write about storytelling and entrepreneurship 💫